Suspect

She glows,

Just like she did when we first made love,
Months after we first locked eyes,

I sigh,
At night when she sleeps beside me,
Wondering what is on her mind,

She wears skirts to work,
Shorter than they used to,
She is doing this to impress who,
Is there another man in her life,
Someone new,

I haven't a clue,
Just suspicions,
I want to interrogate her,
Ask her many questions,

But I am afraid,
Afraid that she will lie,
Because I can see the real answers in her eyes,

My soul would just die,

Why,
Am I not enough for her,
I have given years to her,
Never have I had fears for her,
Leaving me,
Deceiving me,

Like I am not the guy that bought her an engagement ring,
I thought she was a sure thing,

Now she wears the perfume she saves for special occasions,
Special occasions has become more often and never includes me,

It used to be my favorite,
Now its just a sign,
Reminding me of a woman who once was mine,

And mine alone,

And now I'm lying to myself,
That it is fine,

So why am I up late at night,
Drinking wine,
Drinking vodka,
Drinking brandy,
Drinking whatever takes this pain away,

But it won't,

Because my suspicions are as clear as day.